As Taylor Swift rightly said, Heartbreak is the national anthem and we sing it proudly.
So I dedicate this post to my Generation.
Heartbreak. One word and countless memories come flashing back. Doesn’t it? Well that’s why breakups are so hard. They leave you devastated, especially if things don’t end well.
Loving someone and being in love are two different emotions. After a breakup we blame ourselves. Start finding flaws in us. But is it always us ? NO ! Romantic relationships are always Symbiotic/Mutual. Taali kabhi ek haath se nai bajti. [ You can never clap with a single hand ].
The morning next to your breakups are the most difficult ones. You wake up, nice and happy, and before you can even think, reality dawns upon you. That sense of void, that sense of loss and hopelessness can not be described in paper. You feel it because you loved, loved hard, hard enough to fall, to get hurt, get bruised and still love. I used to feel a flood of emotions overwhelm me all at once, but I felt so empty. I still tried, but I was rewarded with blunt replies.
Breakups make you question your role as an individual and your ability as a partner. You feel so unwanted and isolated. Anxiety starts creeping in. We are all deep oceans of insecurities and a breakup exposes them all. I was so dependent on him. I had lost a lot of friends. Worst day? When he gathered enough courage to tell me about his lost interest in me. Those words kept replaying over and over again until I was on the brisk of disgust. My throat was about to explode with a vile mixture of anger and frustration. His words had cut me like a sharp knife. WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO SAY, WHEN I WAS ALL CHOKED UP AND HE WAS OKAY?
For days, I had avoided social situations for the fear of being misjudged, humiliated and embarrassed. I grieved for months. Grieving helps, because it gives you hope and strength to face the melancholy of life with dignity. And moreover, no one has ever died mourning over a breakup. 😂
Sleep. Food. Movies. These are the common escapes from reality. Months of avalanche of painful emotions, made me question myself, What was I outside this relationship?
That was my transition. My greatest wake-up call.
I started this blog just after my breakup. I had never written before. So my biggest challenge was giving words to my emotions. I couldn’t talk about my breakup to anyone, so I started writing. Fiercely. I also started interacting with a lot of people and hearing their struggles and stories gave me hope and motivated me to write. I started glass painting, served as an apprentice to a friend’s clothline, wore my dancing shoes again after half a decade, drew all my focus to things I could do and stopped lamenting over things I couldn’t. I started taking care of myself. I also begun gifting myself things I loved. I learnt a lot about falling in love after I fell out of love.
Few months back, I was so unoccupied that I wasted all my time desperately wanting his attention, and today I have to write things down, thanks to my short-term memory loss 😂. I have finally accepted my reality, the story of my existence. I turned my anguish into bliss ! He had given up on me, but I’d never give up on myself !
So if you are going through a miserable heartbreak right now, your heart will make you think that this is the end of everything. But let me remind you, nothing is permanent. If love can fade, so can pain. Today, I’m stronger, more successful, a lot independent and more at peace than ever ! BECAUSE I DESERVE TO. AND SO DO YOU! You’ll not only survive this, but you shall do it with grace and dignity. And I will be your Silver lining ! Those who know me personally or follow me on social media, will acknowledge the fact that I have never lived my life with this much enthusiasm and positivity as I am living it right now. ♡
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